Baba Vanga

Vanga, s-a nascut la Strumica, in Republica Macedonia de azi, la 31 ianuarie 1911, intr-o familie de tarani. Vanga a murit la varsta de 85 de ani, de cancer, iar ziua mortii si-a prezis-o singura cu multi ani inainte de producerea evenimentului - 11 august 1996.


Vanga a numit cu exactitate matematica ziua în care va incepe cel de-al doilea razboi mondial şi invadarea fostei Iugoslavii de armata germana. A prezis moartea regelui bulgar Boris al III-lea. Cu o jumatate de an inaintea mortii lui Stalin, femeia a prezis ziua si conditiile in care acesta va pieri, fiind arestata si întemnitata. A fost eliberata din inchisoare abia dupa moartea sangerosului dictator de la Kremlin. Vanga stia dinainte de invazia trupelor sovietice in Praga revoltata, în 1968.
In 1969, Vanga a anticipat victoria Indirei Gandhi la alegerile parlamentare anticipate. Catastrofa de la Cernobal, Perestroika, iesirea lui Gorbaciov de pe scena marii politici, destramarea URSS - toate s-au intamplat conform prezicerilor batranei oarbe, care nu avea notiuni prea profunde de politologie sau geopolitica.




Vanga spunea ca se roaga in permanenta la Dumnezeu. Mai spunea ca toate capacitatile sale paranormale nu sunt altceva decat un dar natural pe care ea n-a facut altceva decat s-l folosească spre binele celorlalti. De mica s-a obisnuit sa aiba grija de ceilalti, fara sa ceara nimic pentru sine.


Ea spunea că „Lumea va suferi o mulţime de cataclisme şi necazuri mari se vor abate. Se va schimba însăşi conştiinţa oamenilor. Timpuri grele vor veni. Oamenii se vor împărţi după credinţa lor.” „Suntem martorii evenimentelor cutremurătoare ce vor modifica soarta şi destinul omenirii.”
„În cosmos se va descoperi viaţa şi deodată va deveni limpede cum a apărut viaţa pe Pământ.”


Vanga a prezis atacul terorist asupra Statelor Unite din data de 11 septembrie 2001, în momentul în care a spus că "fraţii"(WTC) din America vor cădea sub atacul păsărilor de oţel. Clarvăzătoarea a prezis şi cel de‑al Doilea Război Modial, restructurarea URSS realizată de Mihail Gorbaciov, moartea prinţesei Diana şi chiar scufundarea submarinului Kursk.
În anul 1980, Vanga a făcut o profeţie şocantă care avea să se împlinească după 20 de ani: „La sfîrşitul veacului, în august 1999 sau 2000, Kursk va fi sub apă şi toată lumea îl va deplînge“, a spus ea atunci. Dar ceea ce a părut la acea vreme o vorbă în vînt a luat, după 20 de ani, chip de tragedie, pentru că scufundarea submarinului nuclear rusesc „Kursk“, cu 117 oameni la bord a fost o imensă tragedie umană.
Ceretătorii ruşi, care au încercat să dezlege cîteva dintre profeţiile bătrînei, spun că în 1989 ea făcea referire la atacurile din 11 septembrie 2001: „Teamă, teamă! Fraţii americani cad de la înălţime, ciupiţi de moarte cu ciocul de păsări de oţel. Lupii ies de după tufiş, urlînd, şi sînge nevinovat curge în valuri“. Experţii susţin că şi numele preşedintelui american Bush ar apărea în profeţie pentru că „bush“ înseamnă în limba engleză „tufiş“.


Doi mari lideri ai lumii si-au strâns mâinile (batrâna facea, evident, aluzie la Mihail Gorbaciov si Ronald Reagan), dar va trebui sa treaca mult timp, va trebui sa curga multa apa pâna când va veni cel de-al Optulea. Abia acesta va aduce pentru totdeauna pacea in Lume", prevedea Vanga, in ianuarie 1988.


Oamenii de stiinta bulgari sustin ca prezicerile Vangai s-au implinit in proportie de 70-80%.
Matematicianul Mihail Holmogorov a facut o serie de calcule, din care a reiesit faptul ca aproape un milion de persoane au vizitat-o pe Vanga, in cei 55 de ani in care s-a ocupat de preziceri.


O previziune importanta pentru România
„Românii sunt oameni speciali, dar nu mai cred în valorile lor şi, dacă mesajul le este adus de un străin, este mai bine primit decât de la unul de-al lor.”


„Eu sunt foarte mică pentru ca el să vină la mine, aşa că eu transmit această veste, care mi-a venit de Sus. Să fie despachetată în luna ianuarie, ziua 24, anul 2005 şi, în cel mult o lună de zile, să fie dusă celui la care voi face referire în text. Dacă nu se va putea ajunge la el, să fie dată celor din preajma sa. Să vă ajute Dumnezeu!
În bucuria acestei lumi, în România va veni cel promis lumii. Se va bucura întregul Pământ de naşterea lui. Dumnezeu îl va ocroti într-un loc, departe de locul unde se odihnesc străbunii lui, până când va veni ceasul său. Cu puterea de Sus va fi dăruit. Pământul, Apa, Focul îi vor veni în ajutor. O dată cu venirea lui în această lume, tot ceea ce este construit pe minciună se va nărui. Toate acestea se vor petrece în anul 2005. El va fi piatra de temelie pentru omenire. Primii care îl vor recunoaşte vor fi cei din poporul său, poporul din care el a ieşit. Drept răsplată, el va aduce acest popor pe cea mai înaltă culme a desăvârşirii, din întreaga lume. Acest popor va deveni o adevărată pildă pentru toate popoarele pământului. El nu va veni cu un cal viu, ci cu un cal din fier, pe care singur îl va mânui.”


“Everything will melt away like ice yet the glory of Vladimir , the glory of Russia are the only things that will remain. Russia will not only survive, it will dominate the world.”(1979)








Mr. Lighthead comments: Got this via e-mail. Well, if true we are awaiting one hell of a ride. If true. But then again, it’s been too long too quiet and maybe it’s time for another world war. Not that I want it. It’s just human behavior to go nuts once in a while an fuck up everyone and everything.


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Baba Vanga was a Bulgarian alleged clairvoyant. She convinced many followers that she possessed paranormal abilities.


Predictions:


2010 – World War III. War will begin in November 2010 and end in October 2014. Will begin as usual, then nuclear will be used initially, and then chemical weapons.


2011 – As a result of the fallout of nuclear fallout in the northern hemisphere will not be any animals or vegetation. Then Muslims will wage war against chemical surviving Europeans.


2014 – Most people will suffer skin cancer and other skin diseases (a consequence of chemical warfare).


2016 – Europe almost lonely (empty).


2018 – New China becomes a world power. Developing countries in turn operated from exploiters.


2023 – A little bit of change in the Earth’s orbit.


2025 – Europe still little settled.


2028 – Creating a new energy source (probably a controlled thermonuclear reaction). Hunger is gradually being overcome. Launched a manned spacecraft to Venus.


2033 – The polar ice are melting. Greater levels of the oceans.


2043 – The world economy is thriving. In Europe, Muslims rule.


2046 – any bodies (organs) can be manufactured (cloning?). Replacing the bodies is becoming one of the best methods of treatment.


2066 – During the attack on the Muslim Rome, the United States used a new kind of weapon – the climate. The sharp cooling (instant freezing).


2076 – Classless Society (communism).


2084 – The restoration of nature.


2088 – A new disease – aging for a few seconds!


2097 – The rapid aging defeated.


2100 – Artificial sun illuminates the dark side of the Earth.


2111 – People become living robots.


2123 – The war between small nations. Big nations do not intervene.


2125 – Hungary will receive signals from space.


2130 – Colony under water (with the help of sympathetic councils).


2164 – Animals turn half-human.


2167 – A new religion.


2170 – Major drought.


2183 – A colony on Mars becomes a nuclear power, and demands independence from the Earth (like when – the United States from England).


2187 – Will stop 2 large eruption of volcanoes.


2195 – Sea Colony fully developed, abundant energy and food.


2196 – Complete mixing of Asians and Europeans.


2201 – At the Sun slowing thermonuclear processes. Temperature drops.


2221 – In the search for extraterrestrial life, humanity comes into contact with what – something terrible.


2256 – Spacecraft forgotten to Earth terrible new disease.


2262 – Planets gradually changing planetary orbit. Mars is threatened by comets.


2271 – Restart physical constants are changed. (Laws of physics changed?)


2273 – Mixing yellow, white and black races. New race.


2279 – Power from nothing (probably from a vacuum or a black hole).


2288 – Travel back in time (Time Travel invented?). New contacts with aliens.


2291 – The sun cools. Attempts were being made to light it again.


2296 – Powerful eruption on the Sun. Changing the force of gravity. Beginning to fall old space stations and satellites.


2299 – In France, guerrilla movement against Islam.


2302 – New important laws and secrets of the universe revealed.


2304 – Secrets of the Moon revealed.


2341 – Something terrible is approaching Earth from space.


2354 – An accident in one of the artificial Sun leads to drought.


2371 – The great famine.


2378 – A new fast-growing race.


2480 – 2 artificial Suns collide. Land in the twilight.


3005 -The war on Mars. Violated the trajectory of the planet.


3010 – Comet hits Moon. Around the Earth – ring/zone of the stones and dust.


3797 – By this time on Earth killed all life, but mankind will be able to lay the foundations for a new life in another stellar system.


3803 – A new planet is populated by little. Fewer contacts between people. Climate new planet affects the organisms of people – they mutate.


3805 – The war between humans for resources. More than half of people dying out.


3815 – The war is over.


3854 – The development of civilization virtually stops. People live flocks as beasts.


3871 – New prophet tells people about moral values, religion.


3874 – New prophet receives support from all segments of the population. Organized a new church.


3878 – along with the Church to re-train new people forgotten sciences.


4302 – New cities are growing in the world. New Church encourages the development of new technology and science.


4302 – The development of science. Scientists discovered in the overall impact of all diseases in organism behavior.


4304 – Found a way to win any disease.


4308 – Due to mutation people at last beginning to use their brains more than 34%. Completely lost the notion of evil and hatred.


4509 – Getting to Know God. The man has finally been reached such a level of development that can communicate with God.


4599 – People achieve immortality.


4674 – The development of civilization has reached its peak. The number of people living on different planets is about 340 billion. Assimilation begins with aliens.


5076 – A boundary universe. With it, no one knows.


5078 – The decision to leave the boundaries of the universe. While about 40 percent of the population is against it.


5079 – End of the World.

Poveşti terifiante despre zece filme blestemate

de Răzvan Boboc in 9 Mai 2009




Rebel Without a Cause (1955)

Deşi i-a propulsat în industria filmului pe James Dean şi Natalie Wood, se spune că pelicula este blestemată. Motivul? O parte dintre tinerii actori au murit în moduri neobişnuite. Dean a murit, la vârsta de 24 de ani, într-un accident de maşină, Wood, la 43 de ani, într-un înnec accidental, Sal Mineo a fost înjunghiat mortal în inimă de un hoţ la vârsta de 37 de ani. Un alt actor, Nick Adams, a murit, la 37 de ani, după o presupusă supradoză de droguri. La el acasă nu au fost găsite flacoane de medicamente sau seringi.










Casino Royale (2006)

Mai mulţi actori şi cascadori au fost răniţi pe platorurile de filmare ale seriei James Bond. Spre exemplu, producţia filmului Casino Royale a fost pentru scurt timp oprită, după ce temerile în ceea ce priveşte blestemul au atins culmi nemaîntâlnite. Patru cascadori au fost foarte grav răniţi în trei accidente. Faimoasa maşină Bond, Aston Martin, a ajuns, fără nicio explicaţie, într-un lac. Daniel Craig şi-a tăiat unul din degete, Halle Berry aproape a orbit iar Pierce Brosnan s-a speriat după ce a fost lovit de nişte fragmente de glonţ.






The Misfits (1961)

Cu Marilyn Monroe, Clark Gable şi Montgomery Clift în distribuţie, filmul lui John Huston a avut în permanenţă parte de doctori pe platourile de filmare pentru a îi trata pe Monroe şi pe Clift care erau destul de instabili. Monore a avut parte de o supradoză în timpul filmărilor şi a luat o pauză de câteva săptămâni pentru dezintoxicare, în timp ce faptul că Huston obişnuia să bea a condus la o serie de complicaţii neaşteptate. Când filmările s-au terminat, Gable a afirmat că Monroe aproape i-a provocat un infarct. A doua zi, acesta chiar a suferit un infarct foarte grav. Doi ani mai târziu, Monroe a murit în urma unei supradoze şi patru ani mai târziu, Clift a murit după ce a făcut infarct.






The Dark Knight (2008)

Trei dintre starurile din filmul cu Batman au avut parte de moarte şi de evenimente violente! După ce Heath Ledger a murit în urma unei supradoze accidentale, înainte de lansarea filmului, Christian Bale a fost arestat pentru acuzaţii de agresiune împotriva mamei sale, iar Morgan Freeman a fost rănit vara trecută într-un accident de maşină în Mississippi.














The Crow (1994)

Filmul cu Brandon Lee în rolul principal a devenit foarte cunoscut pentru povestea înfricoşătoare şi moartea misterioasă a actorului. Mai mulţi membri de pe platourile de filmare au fost răniţi în accidente misterioase şi echipamentul de filmare a fost distrus într-o serie de incendii misterioase. Însă cea mai mare tragedie dintre toate a fost moartea starului Brandon Lee în timpul filmărilor. În una dintre scene, el urma să fie împuşcat cu un pistol Magnum 44 care avea gloanţe oarbe. Când scena a fost filmată, Lee a fost rănit mortal de unul dintre gloanţe care s-a desprins din învelişul protector.






Rosemary's Baby" (1968)

Filmul, cu Mia Farrow şi regizat de Roman Polanski, este adesea considerat unul dintre cele mai blestemate filme din istorie, după ce o serie de evenimente şi morţi bizare au afectat actorii. Compozitorul coloanei sonore a filmului a murit în urma apariţiei unui cheag de sânge pe creier, la un an după lansarea filmului. La fel se întâmplă şi cu unul dintre personajele din film. Producătorul William Castle a suferit de insuficienţă renală şi spunea deseori că filmul este blestemat. Soţia însărcinată a lui Polanski şi alţi patru oameni au fost omorâţi de ucigaşul în serie Charles Manson, în timp ce regizorul era plecat în străinătate. Problemele au continuat! Polanski a fost acuzat de viol iar procesul său nu a fost rezolvat nici până acum, zeci de ani mai târziu.






The Omen (1976)

Chiar din prima zi a filmărilor, acest horror clasic, care îşi concentrează atenţia pe un ambasador american care află ca tânărul său fiu este de fapt Anticristul, a dat impresia că este blestemat. Un membru al echipei a fost rănit într-un accident care a distrus una din maşinile companiei. Mai târziu, un paznic a fost ucis de leii folosiţi pe platou, un avion, în care se afla starul Gregory Peck, a fost lovit de fulger, un al doilea avion, în care se afla scenaristul David Seltzer, a fost de asemenea lovit de fulger şi alţi oameni implicaţi în proiect au murit, după ce un al treilea avion s-a prăbuşit. În timpul filmărilor la continuarea lungmetrajului, toţi actorii au contactat o formă foarte rară de gripă.






The Exorcist (1973)

Filmul câştigător al premiului Oscar, despre o fată care este posedată de diavol, este de asemenea considerat unul dintre cele mai blestemate filme din toate timpurile. Teoriile conspiraţioniste şi adepţi ai supranaturalului susţin că un demon s-a aflat pe platouri şi a încercat să împiedice lansarea filmului. Chiar au existat o serie de zvonuri că nouă oameni ar fi murit în timpul producţiei filmului. Mai multe incendii au izbucnit pe platourile de filmare atunci când nimeni nu se afla acolo. Actriţa Linda Blair a suferit o serie de căderi nervoase după terminarea filmărilor. Rata mortalităţii din zona Georgetown, din statul Washington, a crescut imediat după lansarea peliculei. O altă ştire relateză că o cruce veche de 400 de ani a fost lovită de fulger, în Italia, în timpul premierei filmului.






Superman

Se spune că actorii care au jucat rolul lui Superman au avut parte de un blestem foarte serios care a condus la moartea câtova dintre ei. Christopher Reeve a fost paralizat în urma unui accident de călărie şi a murit în 2004. George Reeves, actorul care l-a jucat pe Superman în serialul de televiziune din anii ’50, a murit din cauza unei împuşcături în cap, iar Bud Collyer, care şi-a împrumutat vocea pentru desenul animat The New Adventures of Superman, a murit de o boală de circulaţie sanguină.










Poltergeist (1982)

Patru actori din trilogie au murit într-o perioadă de şase ani. Actriţa de 22 de ani, Dominique Dunne, care a jucat rolul lui Donna Freeling, a fost ucisă, după ce fostul său iubit a sugrumat-o până ce aceasta a intrat într-o comă din care nu şi-a mai revenit. Starul de 12 ani, Heather O’Rourke, a murit de şoc septic, în 1988, după ce a făcut stop cardiac în urma unei gripe aparent banale.

Samuel Beckett, 'Not I'


Not I
By Samuel Beckett
Written in English in spring 1972. First performed at the Forum Theater of the Lincoln Center, New York, in September 1972. First published by Faber and Faber, London, in 1973. First performed in Britain at the Royal Court Theatre, London, on 16 January 1973.
Note:
Movement: this consists in simple sideways raising of arms from sides and their falling back, in a gesture of helpless compassion. It lessens with each recurrence till scarcely perceptible at third. There is just enough pause to contain it as MOUTH recovers from vehement refusal to relinquish third person.
Stage in darkness but for MOUTH, upstage audience right, about 8 feet above stage level, faintly lit from close-up and below, rest of face in shadow. Invisible microphone.
AUDITOR, downstage audience left, tall standing figure, sex undeterminable, enveloped from head to foot in loose black djellaba, with hood, fully faintly lit, standing on invisible podium about 4 feet high shown by attitude alone to be facing diagonally across stage intent on MOUTH, dead still throughout but for four brief movements where indicated. See Note.
As house lights down MOUTH`S voice unintelligible behind curtain. House lights out. Voice continues unintelligible behind curtain, l0 seconds. With rise of curtain ad-libbing from text as required leading when curtain fully up and attention sufficient into:
MOUTH: . . . . out . . . into this world . . . this world . . . tiny little thing . . . before its time . . . in a godfor– . . . what? . . girl? . . yes . . . tiny little girl . . . into this . . . out into this . . . before her time . . . godforsaken hole called . . . called . . . no matter . . . parents unknown . . . unheard of . . . he having vanished . . . thin air . . . no sooner buttoned up his breeches . . . she similarly . . . eight months later . . . almost to the tick . . . so no love . . . spared that . . . no love such as normally vented on the . . . speechless infant . . . in the home . . . no . . . nor indeed for that matter any of any kind . . . no love of any kind . . . at any subsequent stage . . . so typical affair . . . nothing of any note till coming up to sixty when– . . . what? . . seventy?. . good God! . . coming up to seventy . . . wandering in a field . . . looking aimlessly for cowslips . . . to make a ball . . . a few steps then stop . . . stare into space . . . then on . . . a few more . . . stop and stare again . . . so on . . . drifting around . . . when suddenly . . . gradually . . . all went out . . . all that early April morning light . . . and she found herself in the--– . . . what? . . who? . . no! . . she! . . [Pause and movement 1.] . . . found herself in the dark . . . and if not exactly . . . insentient . . . insentient . . . for she could still hear the buzzing . . . so-called . . . in the ears . . . and a ray of light came and went . . . came and went . . . such as the moon might cast . . . drifting . . . in and out of cloud . . . but so dulled . . . feeling . . . feeling so dulled . . . she did not know . . . what position she was in . . . imagine! . . what position she was in! . . whether standing . . . or sitting . . . but the brain– . . . what?. . kneeling? . . yes . . . whether standing . . . or sitting . . . or kneeling . . . but the brain– . . . what? . . lying? . . yes . . whether standing . . . or sitting . . . or kneeling . . . or lying . . . but the brain still . . . still . . . in a way . . . for her first thought was . . . oh long after . . . sudden flash . . . brought up as she had been to believe . . . with the other waifs . . . in a merciful . . . [Brief laugh.] . . . God . . . [Good laugh.] . . . first thought was . . . oh long after . . . sudden flash . . . she was being punished . . . for her sins . . . a number of which then . . . further proof if proof were needed . . . flashed through her mind . . . one after another . . . then dismissed as foolish . . . oh long after . . . this thought dismissed . . . as she suddenly realized . . . gradually realized . . . she was not suffering . . . imagine! . . not suffering! . . indeed could not remember . . . off-hand . . . when she had suffered less . . . unless of course she was . . . meant to be suffering . . . ha! . . thought to be suffering . . . just as the odd time . . . in her life . . . when clearly intended to be having pleasure . . . she was in fact . . . having none . . . not the slightest . . . in which case of course . . . that notion of punishment . . . for some sin or other . . . or for the lot . . . or no particular reason . . . for its own sake . . . thing she understood perfectly . . . that notion of punishment . . . which had first occurred to her . . . brought up as she had been to believe . . . with the other waifs . . . in a merciful . . . [Brief laugh.] . . . God . . . [Good laugh.] . . . first occurred to her . . . then dismissed . . . as foolish . . . was perhaps not so foolish . . . after all . . . so on . . . all that . . . vain reasonings . . . till another thought . . . oh long after . . . sudden flash . . . . . very foolish really but– . . . what? . . the buzzing? . . yes . . . all the time buzzing . . . so-called . . . in the ears . . . though of course actually . . . not in the ears at all . . . in the skull . . . dull roar in the skull . . . and all the time this ray or beam . . . like moonbeam . . . but probably not . . . certainly not . . . always the same spot . . . now bright . . . now shrouded . . . but always the same spot . . . as no moon could . . . no . . . no moon . . . just all part of the same wish to . . . torment . . . though actually in point of fact . . . not in the least . . . not a twinge . . . so far . . . ha! . . so far . . . this other thought then . . . oh long after . . . sudden flash . . . very foolish really but so like her . . . in a way . . . that she might do well to . . . groan . . . on and off . . . writhe she could not . . . as if in actual agony . . . but could not . . . could not bring herself . . . some flaw in her make-up . . . incapable of deceit . . . or the machine . . . more likely the machine . . . so disconnected . . . never got the message . . . or powerless to respond . . . like numbed . . . couldn't make the sound . . . not any sound . . . no sound of any kind . . . no screaming for help for example . . . should she feel so inclined . . . scream . . . [Screams.] . . . then listen . . . [Silence.] . . . scream again . . . [Screams again.] . . . then listen again . . . [Silence.] . . . no . . . spared that . . . all silent as the grave . . . no part–. . . what? . . the buzzing? . . yes . . . all silent but for the buzzing . . . so-called . . . no part of her moving . . . that she could feel . . . just the eyelids . . . presumably . . . on and off . . . shut out the light . . . reflex they call it . . . no feeling of any kind . . . but the lids . . . even best of times . . . who feels them? . . opening . . . shutting . . . all that moisture . . .but the brain still . . . still sufficiently . . . oh very much so! . . at this stage . . . in control . . . under control . . . to question even this . . . for on that April morning . . . so it reasoned . . . that April morning . . . she fixing with her eye . . . a distant bell . . . as she hastened towards it . . . fixing it with her eye . . . lest it elude her . . . had not all gone out . . . all that light . . . of itself . . . without any . . . any. . . on her part . . . so on . . . so on it reasoned . . . vain questionings . . . and all dead still . . . sweet silent as the grave . . . when suddenly . . . gradually . . . she realiz–. . . what? . . the buzzing? . . yes . . . all dead still but for the buzzing . . . when suddenly she realized . . . words were– . . . what? . . who?. . no! . . she! . . [Pause and movement 2.] . . . realized . . . words were coming . . . imagine! . . . words were coming . . . a voice she did not recognize at first so long since it had sounded . . . then finally had to admit . . . could be none other . . . than her own . . . certain vowel sounds . . . she had never heard . . . elsewhere . . . so that people would stare . . . the rare occasions . . . once or twice a year . . . always winter some strange reason . . . stare at her uncom-prehending . . . and now this stream . . . steady stream . . . she who had never . . . on the contrary . . . practically speechless . . . all her days . . . how she survived! . . even shopping . . . out shopping . . . busy shopping centre . . . supermart . . . just hand in the list . . . with the bag . . . old black shopping bag . . . then stand there waiting . . . any length of time . . . middle of the throng . . . motionless . . . staring into space . . . mouth half open as usual . . . till it
was back in her hand . . . the bag back in her hand . . . then pay and go . . . not as much as good-bye . . . how she survived! . . and now this stream . . . not catching the half of it . . . not the quarter . . . no idea . . . what she was saying . . . imagine! . . no idea what she was saying! . . till she began trying to . . . delude herself . . . it was not hers at all . . . not her voice at all . . . and no doubt would have . . . vital she should . . . was on the point . . . after long efforts . . . when suddenly she felt . . . gradually she felt . . . her lips moving . . . imagine! . . her lips moving! . . as of course till then she had not . . . and not alone the lips . . . the cheeks . . . the jaws . . . the whole face . . . all those– . . what?. . the tongue? . . yes . . . the tongue in the mouth . . . all those contortions without which . . . no speech possible . . . and yet in the ordinary way . . . not felt at all . . . so intent one is . . . on what one is saying . . . the whole being . . . hanging on its words . . . so that not only she had . . . had she . . . not only had she . . . to give up . . . admit hers alone . . . her voice alone . . . but this other awful thought . . . oh long after . . . sudden flash . . . even more awful if possible . . . that feeling was coming back . . . imagine! . . feeling coming back! . . starting at the top . . . then working down . . . the whole machine . . . but no . . . spared that . . . the mouth alone . . . so far . . . ha! . . so far . . . then thinking . . . oh long after . . . sudden flash . . . it can't go on . . . all this . . . all that . . . steady stream . . . straining to hear . . . make some-thing of it . . . and her own thoughts . . . make something of them . . . all– . . . what? . . the buzzing? . . yes . . . all the time the buzzing . . . so-called . . . all that together . . . imagine! . . whole body like gone . . . just the mouth . . . lips . . . cheeks . . . jaws . . . never– . . . what?. . tongue? . . yes . . . lips. . . cheeks . . . jaws . . . tongue . . . never still a second . . . mouth on fire . . . stream of words . . . in her ear . . . practically in her ear . . . not catching the half . . . not the quarter . . . no idea what she's saying . . . imagine! . . no idea what she's saying! . . and can't stop . . . no stopping it . . . she who but a moment before . . . but a moment! . . could not make a sound . . . no sound of any kind . . . now can't stop . . . imagine! . . can't stop the stream . . . and the whole brain begging . . . something begging in the brain . . . begging the mouth to stop . . . pause a moment . . . if only for a moment . . . and no response . . . as if it hadn’t heard . . . or couldn’t . . . couldn't pause a second . . . like maddened . . . all that together . . . straining to hear . . . piece it together . . . and the brain . . . raving away on its own . . . trying to make sense of it . . . or make it stop . . . or in the past . . . dragging up the past . . . flashes from all over . . . walks mostly . . . walking all her days . . . day after day . . . a few steps then stop . . . stare into space . . . then on . . . a few more . . . stop and stare again . . . so on . . . drifting around . . . day after day . . . or that time she cried . . . the one time she could remember . . . since she was a baby . . . must have cried as a baby . . . perhaps not . . . not essential to life . . . just the birth cry to get her going . . . breathing . . . then no more till this . . . old hag already . . . sitting staring at her hand . . . where was it? . . Croker's Acres . . . one evening on the way home . . . home! . . a little mound in Croker's Acres . . . dusk . . . sitting staring at her hand . . . there in her lap . . . palm upward . . . suddenly saw it wet . . . the palm . . . tears presumably . . . hers presumably . . . no one else for miles . . . no sound . . . just the tears . . . sat and watched them dry . . . all over in a second . . . or grabbing at straw . . . the brain . . . flickering away on its own . . . quick grab and on. . . nothing there . . . on to the next . . . bad as the voice . . . worse . . . as little sense . . . all that together . . . can't– . . . what? . . the buzzing? . . yes . . . all the time the buzzing . . . dull roar like falls . . . and the beam . . . flickering on and off . . . starting to move around . . . like moonbeam but not . . . all part of the same . . . keep an eye on that too . . . corner of the eye . . . all that together . . . can't go on . . . God is love . . . she'll be purged . . . back in the field . . . morning sun . . . April . . . sink face down in the grass . . . nothing but the larks . . . so on . . . grabbing at the straw . . . straining to hear . . . the odd word . . . make some sense of it . . . whole body like gone . . . just the mouth . . . like maddened . . . and can't stop . . . no stopping it . . . something she– . . . something she had to– . . . what? . . who? . . no! . . she! . . [Pause and movement 3.] . . . something she had to–. . . what? . . the buzzing? . . yes . . . all the time the buzzing . . . dull roar . . . in the skull . . . and the beam . . . ferreting around . . . painless . . . so far . . . ha! . . so far . . . then thinking . . . oh long after . . . sudden flash . . . perhaps something she had to . . . had to . . . tell . . . could that be it? . . something she had to . . . tell . . . tiny little thing . . . before its time . . . godforsaken hole . . . no love . . . spared that . . . speechless all her days . . . practically speechless . . . how she survived! . . that time in court . . . what had she to say for herself . . . guilty or not guilty . . . stand up woman . . . speak up woman . . . stood there staring into space . . . mouth half open as usual . . . waiting to be led away . . . glad of the hand on her arm . . . now this . . . some-thing she had to tell . . . could that be it? . . something that would tell . . . how it was . . . how she– . . . what? . . had been? . . yes . . . something that would tell how it had been . . . how she had lived . . . lived on and on . . . guilty or not . . . on and on . . . to be sixty . . . something she– . . . what? . . seventy? . . good God! . . on and on to be seventy . . . something she didn't know herself . . . wouldn't know if she heard . . . then forgiven . . . God is love . . . tender mercies . . . new every morning . . . back in the field . . . April morning . . . face in the grass . . . nothing but the larks . . . pick it up there . . . get on with it from there . . . another few– . . . what? . . not that? . . nothing to do with that? . . nothing she could tell? . . all right . . . nothing she could tell . . . try something else . . . think of something else . . . oh long after . . . sudden flash . . . not that either . . . all right . . . something else again . . . so on . . . hit on it in the end . . . think everything keep on long enough . . . then forgiven . . . back in the– . . . what? . . not that either? . . nothing to do with that either? . . nothing she could think? . . all right . . . nothing she could tell . . . nothing she could think . . . nothing she– . . what? . . who? . . no! . . she! . . [Pause and movement 4.] . . . tiny little thing . . . out before its time . . . godforsaken hole . . . no love . . . spared that . . . speechless all her days . . . practically speechless . . . even to herself . . . never out loud . . . but not completely . . . sometimes sudden urge . . . once or twice a year . . . always winter some strange reason . . . the long evenings . . . hours of darkness . . . sudden urge to . . . tell . . . then rush out stop the first she saw . . . nearest lavatory . . . start pouring it out . . . steady stream . . . mad stuff . . . half the vowels wrong . . . no one could follow . . . till she saw the stare she was getting . . . then die of shame . . . crawl back in . . . once or twice a year . . . always winter some strange reason . . . long hours of darkness . . . now this . . . this . . . quicker and quicker . . . the words . . . the brain . . . flickering away like mad . . . quick grab and on . . . nothing there . . . on somewhere else . . . try somewhere else . . . all the time something begging . . . something in her begging . . . begging it all to stop . . . unanswered . . . prayer unanswered . . . or unheard . . . too faint . . . so on . . . keep on . . . trying . . . not knowing what . . . what she was trying . . . what to try . . . whole body like gone . . . just the mouth . . . like maddened . . . so on . . . keep– . . . what? . . the buzzing? . . yes . . . all the time the buzzing . . . dull roar like falls . . . in the skull . . . and the beam . . . poking around . . . painless . . . so far . . . ha! . . so far . . . all that . . . keep on . . . not knowing what . . . what she was– . . . what? . . who? . . no! . . she! . . SHE! . . [Pause.] . . . what she was trying . . . what to try . . . no matter . . . keep on . . . [Curtain starts down.] . . . hit on it in the end . . . then back . . . God is love . . . tender mercies . . . new every morning . . . back in the field . . . April morning . . . face in the grass . . . nothing but the larks . . . pick it up–
Theatre play, written 1972 in English
First published: London 1973; Paris 1975
First production: Lincoln Center, New York, 1972, directed by Alan Schneider
Performed at the Royal Court Theatre on 16th January, 1973
Produced for the BBC in 1977 by Tristram Powell
Cast: Billie Whitelaw (mouth)